以前20歲出頭的時候,總會害怕別人的評價,怕別人不喜歡我,怕別人看不起我,怕別人議論我。
大学第一年,有个我把她当好姐妹的朋友某天突然跟我說,因為你手裡拿的包不跟我們其他人同樣等級,所以我們不能一起出门。有一度,我疯狂买包买衣服,因為怕別人瞧不起我,不把我當一回事。現在的我,覺得有現金比有包好。简单几件百搭的单品更方便。如果當不當得成朋友取決於我拿什麼包,那我寧可沒有這種朋友。這是自我提升和成长之後換來的底氣。
就連炒股,一年前的我會坐在電腦面前不知所措地哭。那時候任何買賣都不敢,認為自己不管怎樣都是失敗的。現在的我,虽還沒突然一夜暴富 (我還是希望這天會到來),但是亏钱之后也不再懷疑自己是否不能翻身了。我再怎么fuck up,我也知道哪里是个end point。就像我大师兄说的:【炒股不要看你当下赚了多少钱,你的底气应该来自于扣了犯傻的亏损之后,那个你能赚到最低的nett profit】。壓力迷茫肯定每时每刻都有的,但是現在的底氣是這一年半裡的起起落落、虧損💸、眼淚、壓力、无数个失眠的夜晚/Panic attacks換來的。只要青山还保着,这就还是一份完完全全属于自己的小事业。我是我自己portfolio的小老板。
今天听到很暖心的话,是閨蜜跟我說的:【想當年的你肯定受創,但是現在的你可以一笑而過】。
雖然偶爾會cry-baby一下,但是很快又自我療癒了。很多事情我都能在短時間內代謝掉。因為limit down的點就是 「大不了再熬過一次罷了嘛!」
Tuesday, May 4, 2021
A few weeks ago, my mom and her friend discovered a cafe at Balik Pulau, named Nada Natural Farming Cafe. Ever since then, she had been trying to go back again but it's always full.
Seeing that Mother's Day is just around the corner, I tried to secure a booking. I wasn't expecting a positive response as I heard that Nada Natural Farming Cafe has quite a long waiting list most of the time because they are only opened for 3 days a week, noon - evening. Nevertheless, I got a yes!
For those who know me personally will know that I am never a country side / outdoor type of person, unless it's autumn or winter. Unfortunately being in Malaysia, all I get is summer 24/7, so FML big time. If it wasn't for an early Mother's Day celebration, there's no way I'd voluntarily offer to go to such a place. Even my bestie thought that someone hacked my Insta when I told her in DM that I was going to this place because it's so unlike me!
- Nada Natural Farming Cafe is a nice getaway place to chill with some cold drinks. I myself enjoyed the Kefir a lot but skipped the beer because I'm not a drinker.
- The pasta dishes didn't match up to their prices. As a pasta lover, I know where to find better pasta at a cheaper price.
- The service was quite slow. In their defense, only 2 people were running the floor and the kitchen was quite a distance from the seating area.
- I won't be back again because other than the Kefir, no other factor can make me go all the way there and brave through the heat and bugs ever again. In fact, if it wasn't for my mom, I wouldn't go there at all, the photos online didn't tempt me.
- That said, if I had such a place in Melbourne back then, I believe I would be a regular customer during the autumn.
Address:
Lot 646 & 647, Jalan Kuala Sungai Burung, Kampung Sungai Burung, 11000 Balik Pulau, Penang.
Contact:
+6013-4030988